It’s winter outside but it’s spring within me – blooming spring that has left me longing for everything. The sun, it’s warmth, the clear blue sky, the soft breeze. I long to go out , to talk , to play , to laugh and be just happy without any regret at the back of my mind. I want to walk on the soft green grass decorated with diamonds of dews. I want to feel the softness of the ground beneath it. I want to dance in the rain. I long to have friends.
It’s like an awakening, like a rush of blood going through my whole body. I have been breathing through the cracks in the windows that I closed long ago. I long to breathe in fresh air. The air around me is stale, it’s sickening.
My heart is beating fast and I am utterly confused. I don’t know what to do. I feel as if I’m going to burst but I know crying will help. Oh god, above all I long for crying and let it all out.
I long to be free once again.