Lost wildflower🍁

This emptiness hurts but what’s more painful is my ability to remember each and everything in detail. On some days when i feel being eaten up or consumed whole by this loneliness of those silent moments, I revisit those memories we made together, to seek solace. But after reaching there I realise the *solace* I am searching does not live there anymore. It does not exist in those ruins. It is nowhere to be found.

And going back there makes me feel stuck, like I am glued to the place that now exists only in my memory.

The realisation of this reality is what’s more terrifying and it’s acceptance even more brutal. But I know this acceptance is important for me to bloom again, into the wildflower that I once used to be.

28 comments

  1. :) · Jan 22

    I am not srijan. Who is this guy? Why do you keep calling me that? I was your friend in school. We were classmates. I care for you. You were really sweet then. I still remember. How was your day? Was it well?

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    • oishi · Jan 22

      Which class?

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      • :) · Jan 22

        10th. I won’t share anything else. Will you now please tell me as to how was your day?

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      • oishi · Jan 22

        Which school?

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      • oishi · Jan 22

        Like I completed my 10th in two schools

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  2. :) · Jan 22

    I’m not srijan. Who is that? Im just an acquaintance. I hope you have a lovely day and also that you smile today 🙂

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    • oishi · Jan 22

      I see… But acquaintances do have names😊 so I want that

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      • :) · Jan 22

        You are really stubborn, but i can’t share. Sorry.
        How was your day so far?

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      • oishi · Jan 22

        Srijan sengupta… You stop playing these games okay… Send me the email you are using currently

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  3. :) · Jan 22

    well, i had a bath after a week, three days ago. and now i will have a bath after 4 days. so. lalalala

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    • oishi · Jan 22

      And now I know why you stink like a skunk

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      • :) · Jan 22

        no that’s because i had a dream where i was hugging you. btw, my email is same. i didn’t change it. but someone just ignores my stuff nowadays so yeah

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      • oishi · Jan 22

        I texted you on hangouts

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  4. :) · Jan 22

    because im a really shy kid. so that’s why. anyway, now will you please tell me as to how was your day?

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    • oishi · Jan 22

      Not until I get your name😊 you give something you take something in return… Nothing for free

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      • :) · Jan 22

        you are so stubborn. don’t make me give you a hug
        I haven’t had a bath a 3 days

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      • oishi · Jan 22

        Oh… Glad to hear it’s not been a week

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  5. :) · Jan 22

    Also please tell me about your day? How was it? Are you taking care of yourself? Are you eating well? And be a less annoying varna no one would marry you and you’d have to call me :p

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    • oishi · Jan 22

      Maine na mukka maar k tera butha change kr dena h… If it’s you srijan sengupta… I swear😤😤 why can’t you just accept that it’s you

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      • :) · Jan 22

        haha, that’s funny. Why do you keep calling me srijan? do you like him or something? who is he? he seems like a nice guy

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      • oishi · Jan 22

        Coz he is the biggest ass I have come across in my short lifespan of 21😂

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  6. oishi · Jan 22

    Here’s the thing… This is exactly what I was not like in school😂 now please… The name ?

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    • :) · Jan 22

      no you were. But on small small things. And i can’t share my name. im sorry.

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      • oishi · Jan 22

        And why… I don’t eat humans🤢

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  7. oishi · Jan 22

    Oh my my… That certainly is an overstatement😁 I’m not that pretty😊
    Happiness is pretty much the one thing I am not privileged to have at this point in my life and I am not a writer. I’m still learning and as yet, I write only what I feel. But ofc , I will try.
    Shall I have your name?

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    • oishi · Jan 22

      C’mon… Srijan I know that’s you… And you better stop playing with my head else I will kill you 👀

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  8. oishi · Jan 21

    It’s wonderful to hear from you again srijan😊 thankyou… Take care

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    • oishi · Jan 22

      Oh, I’m extremely sorry I mistook you to be somebody else. You just emanate his aura.

      I, with all my heart respect you and all the more am grateful for this care. Inshallah someday we will sit face to face, to share our stories of the process of gaining our strengths. thankyou so much, keep spreading love😊

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