I keep myself busy most of the times that I am awake. The reason being, I don’t want to think about you. Whenever my body is at rest, my mind cannot stop racing. It wanders and I fear that it will find you. My thoughts drift back to you every now and then. And my eyes get watery. And every time this happens, i feel sorry , sorry for what there was and what it could have turned into but what we have lost now. And then I let it out. I can’t hold any longer and let it all out. It’s just so needed at such times I guess.
It was a mistake loving you, and this is how I penance myself for it.